Have you ever loved somebody so much, it makes you cry?
That’s the opening line of Brandy’s “Have You Ever”. That’s also a question I can relate to at the moment. Why is it every time I fall for you, I fall so hard and so deep that it’s almost impossible to get back up? What does it take to show you this feeling I have is the most real one I have ever had? I’ve never wanted anything so bad that it actually hurts every time I pursue it.
All I’m asking for is a chance. A chance for me to show you that I am real. That my sincerity is real, and it is purer than the fluffy white clouds in the sky on a bright sunny day. And that every day that have gone past without your presence, I am like a fish out of water. Wriggling, gasping for air, and dying at the same time. I may look cheerful, happy, and all crazy on the outside. But that’s just a temporary band-aid to mask the pain beneath. Why is this love so deep, and when will I stop falling?
And all you can do is wait. For that day when they will care.